michellehail

I feel like shit. Honestly. I hate the feeling of someone overtaking you and you just don't have the ability to catch up with them. And even though they might not mean it, it always feels like they're laughing at you or just giving you pity. Am i really that replaceable?

I hate it.

I don't know what i'm good at anymore. Drawing? No. Studies? No. CCAs? No. 
There's always someone better, and i guess that's just how the world works. You're never going to be the best.
I don't know what i should be proud of of myself. Or should i just be satisfied with what i have?
But i don't even know what i have to be satisfied with.

I don't know anymore. I'm tired of trying and trying and ending up dropping further behind.

I just.

Argh.